As If I Needed A Reason . . . Confessions *

So it’s my favorite Blogging day of the week! Why? Because I don’t have to get all creative. I just get to throw it all up and hope you people consider  my word vomit worthy of the internet. If not, I’m sorry. Not really, but I’ll say it anyhow. Regardless, it’s time to confess:

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So our power went out this morning due to a crazy storm. I would love to tell you that this is the reason I’m not posting until 4pm, but it’s not. I confess: I’m just lazy. After a morning spent living like a pilgrim, I decided to finally use a lighter to get my gas stove top going and make myself some hot water the old-fashioned way. Tea was a necessity. I then took it upon myself to completely remodel my daughter’s bedroom. (Because what else are you supposed to do with no internet, tv, bullet blender, and lights?) It wasn’t until about an hour and a half into this ordeal that I realized the power was back on. By mistake. I moved a lamp across the room and turned it on by habit, -TADA-it actually turned on. My dumb ass would have probably spent the better half of another 5 hours before I realized I wasn’t in the cretaceous period  if not for that lamp. Thank God I’m stupid.

I literally watched a full 25 hours of Pretty Little Liars Season 4 in only 5 days. That’s pathetic. Like seriously, that’s the equivalent of me staying up nonstop for an entire night AND day and not leaving the couch for anything. Or just basically doing nothing for like 5 days (5 hours a day) I don’t even care. I was all caught up for the second episode of Season 2 last night. It was like running my first marathon. #ForLazyPeople. I was so proud, until I realized I had to put up with commercials. Aint Nobody Got Time For That. Not to mention, I have to actually WAIT  7 days for the next episode? This must be what coming off drugs feels like. . . . #FirstWorldProblems.

I had to pay $64.00 for the dry cleaning  that I picked up this morning. WHAT THE F. I don’t even have a career that involves getting suits and pants pressed. I’ve not been this annoyed with spending  money on stupid shit for at least 3 months. I left feeling pretty much like this:

Tomorrow is Day 100 on my 100 Happy Days Challenge. I have NO clue what I should photograph to go out with a “Bang”. I could seriously use some inspiration so feel free to leave a comment or two on what you think would make a great finale!

I wore a dress and heels this weekend that would have looked great on a 21-year-old. On me? Not so much. I mean I can pull off leopard heels from time to time, but platform? No thanks, not EVER again. I also rode a party bus and danced at a club that featured half-naked women in platform cages and extremely loud music that I wasn’t familiar with. It became incredibly clear in a short amount of time that I’m officially not a 20 something, even if I’m entitled to another 1.5 years of 2_. It was an awesome night but for the first time in a long time, a bed, any bed, had never felt so fantastic. But seriously, I’m sticking with skinny jeans from here on out. . . .

I can’t stop making Frozen Hot Chocolates (And NOT From Tim Horton’s This Time!! – (See previous post that explains my past addiction). I came up with a homemade alternative (because I’m a frugal bitch) that is so stupid simple it’s just silly not to make 2-3 a day. Or 4. I am addicted already and I only decided to play around with a few recipes last week. So obsessed actually that I’m using my DIY Thursday post tomorrow to feature a recipe you can make with stuff you probably all have lying around your house already. Check it out if you want in on the affordable goodness that is to come.

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On that note I’m getting the hell out of here before the power goes again . . . another storm rolling in! But before I run, let me remind you to head on over to Humpday Confessions with Kathy over at Vodka & Soda – the perfect place to air your dirty laundry.

If that’s not really your style (but seriously, who don’t love a good reason to get it all out), get on over to The Hump Day Blog Hop with Liz at Fitness Blondie, another great way to meet new Bloggers and share your simple selfs!

Cheers,

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Acceptance – Have The Life You Want. *

Creating the perfect life is no simple task. For most of us, it’s never enough. We will always be looking for that next step or the next best thing to come along. While I’ve often fell victim to a similar train of thought, I’ve recently begun to accept life on life’s terms. I’ve strayed from my typical “Type A” personality and learned to smell the roses. Looking back on the past year of my life, I’ve had a variety of ups and downs. With the utmost honesty I can say I’m not alone. But how do you deal?

I used to stress, I used to plan, I used to worry. I had my reasons. It’s normal to try and control the situation. . . .but have you ever considered just having a little faith? Today I plan, but not the outcome. Today I stress, but on a 30 second clock. Once those 30 seconds are up, I move on. If I spent the entire day stuck on one thing, I would completely forget to enjoy the DAY. I used to worry. Not anymore. Things always work out if we just do the next right thing. I can’t control the world today, but I can control me and for what it’s worth, that’s enough.

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While this sounds incredibly simple, it’s the act of truly accepting things, people, and places  just the way they are that’s truly a trial. The line at the local market, the old lady in the parking lot that can’t pull out fast enough (insert sarcasm here), the dirty dishes in the sink. It’s all waiting to steal away your afternoon. One wrong moment and your entire day could be ruined. Am I right? Well listen up, your only answer is acceptance:

Acceptance in human psychology is a person’s assent to the reality of a situation, recognizing a process or condition (often a negative or uncomfortable situation) without attempting to change it, protest or exit. The concept is close in meaning to ‘acquiescence’, derived from the Latin ‘acquiēscere’ (to find rest in).

Finding Rest. THAT is the key. It’s all about accepting life on life’s terms instead of trying to fight the world all the time. Things happen for a reason. I’ve found a lot of serenity in knowing that I don’t have to have all the answers. I can count my blessings  and sleep sound. Life is good today.

Cheers,

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For The Lack Of A Better Title – Confessions. *

It’s been a long week my friends. I say that in a good way. . . but truthfully, I’m exhausted. So anyhow, lets get in on the fun that is every Wednesday and jump right off the confession high dive!

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I watched Orange is the New Black – Season Two  release in less than 24 hours. I felt seriously guilty until I realized that half the First World had done the same. I actually fell short of a few people, and they have full time jobs. WHAT?? Major slacking on my part. Anyhow, it was GREAT. I wish I could make these shows last longer, but I’m a binger. I can’t help myself. Line them up, knock them down. #sorryNOTsorry. For now, I’ll pretty much be recovering as such until next June. . . .

I rolled right out of one addiction and into another. I woke up this morning and started season 4 of Pretty Little Liars. Since I didn’t start obsessing over this dramatic nonsense until last fall, I was forced to wait out season 4 for Netflix. Of course season 5 started last night but that’s what DVR is for. #Duh. I figured I would start by first watching the season finale of season 3 to refresh my memory. . . only to watch the first episode of season 4 that was a total recap. So annoying. I would have been totally pissed if I was actually a devoted fan of this crap and had waited between seasons for a “brand new episode” that just told me everything I already know. If the first episode of season 5 is anything like this, please let me know now. I will just delete it off my DVR now. . . I need room for other non-important shows. Ok but really, enough TV. I need to get a life.

I have a bachelorette party this weekend that I can’t wait for! I confess: these events are my jam. I can’t get enough of a big girls night out and bus loads of dramatic bitching. It’s a blessing to call this a “night out”. Really it is! Did I mention I won’t be drinking? SMFH. Never mind, kill me now. No but seriously, it should be fun. I just need to figure out if I’m going to give up on my “eyebrow strike” or not. . . . these little caterpillars are getting frisky. I also have no idea how to dress sexy. I mean I try my best, but I never get to the comfort level. I’m either Vegas or Baby Shower. . . . god help us  that I’m not both on Saturday. I’m thinking this GIF would make deciding my attire that much easier. . .

I can’t stop eating cookies. Like 3 sleeves of Oreos and at least a dozen quick mix sugar cookies (with frosting). I made cookies for my daughter’s lemonade stand this past weekend and had to “get rid of them”. . . AKA eat the remaining cookies in under 2 days. . . Now I can’t stop. I want more. #Help.

I’m currently playing housewife and recently realized I was better at meal planning when I was in the office 5 days a week then when I’m sitting my ass 10 feet away from our stove, ALL DAY. It’s a mix between “I don’t care” and “it’s too late to defrost this – lets order pizza”. I actually like cooking too, it’s just I can feel the laziness taking over my routine. I’m giving up. On the bright side, today I picked up a french baguette to grill with dinner. . . I just don’t know what “dinner” that would be. Did I mention it’s already 5pm? #BreadWithASideOfBread. #HopeYouLikeIt. #ILoveBread.

My daughter is really starting to test me. After a handful of tantrums, tempers and tossing shit about, I’m pretty sure my husband is losing his mind with the both of us. You can only argue with a 2 year old so many times until you start to sound like one yourself. #Me. I wouldn’t be surprised if he didn’t come home from work today . . . or worse: If he did.

I can still use my toilet without removing my daughter’s training seat. I have the ass of an eight year old boy and I’m not even upset about it. On the other hand, Paige gets VERY upset about it.

I am being featured as a guest blogger tomorrow with Chelsee over at Southern Beauty Guide. . . I  had no idea how to send this post. I seriously sent her like 9 emails, copy and pasted, html, millions of photo files. . . .I am pretty sure she will never ask me to guest blog for her again, thinks I’m crazy or both. #Noob. It’s a little DIY I did on our lemonade stand! I’m extremely excited but also nervous. I’ll have it up on the blog tomorrow so please leave me some love!!

So that about sums it up. . . a week full of confessions only to be followed by a recap full of GIFS. #ILoveThisDay. If you want to get in on the weekly tradition of Humpday Confessions with Kathy  at Vodka And Soda make sure to share the link below:

Or if you just want to meet new peeps and spread the good word, get in on The Hump Day Blog Hop With Liz over at Fitness Blondie!

 

 

Cheers,

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National Lemonade Days – #OneCupAtATime *

So while I typically am horrible about re-capping my weekends, I couldn’t wait to share with everyone the eventful fun that took place at the Jazz Castle these past few days!

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National Lemonade Day’s 10th Anniversary took place – an annual event inspired by Alex’s Lemonade Stand Foundation. This foundation began 10 years ago when Alex, at the age of four, opened her first Lemonade stand to help find a cure for all childhood cancers, including her own. Since then, over 20,000 Alex’s Lemonade Stands have popped up around the country and National Lemonade Days have helped to support – in unity – Alex’s dream of finding a cure. With each and every year becoming bigger and better than the last, what once started in Alex’s front yard has spread across a nation and now annually raises over 1 Million Dollars in support of funding research for all forms of childhood cancer! This year the event – since it began, has now surpassed 80 Million Dollars in funding. . . . Incredible!

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As a young girl, I myself helped in efforts to raise money for a local girl with Neuroblastoma, one of the more common forms of childhood cancer. Amber was her name and she attended my elementary school. At the time, I was 11 years old. I worked for the local paper and wrote a weekly column under the “Teen Writers” section. I thought I could help by dedicating an article to a fundraiser that my family and friends had thought up and much to our surprise the local support was astounding! We raised over $27,000 in only a few short months, raffled a brand new truck and even attracted the attention of our local news and radio. Amber and her family, as my own, were overwhelmed with the outpouring of affection and felt incredibly blessed.

While Amber gracefully passed a short while after at the age of 6, she left my family and our community with heavy hearts, but also with hope. Amber’s funeral was absolutely beautiful and the hundreds of people that attended let go of so many balloons skyward that you swore the sky was left colored for days. It was an incredibly tough experience to go through at a young age and while I can only imagine the hurt and pain her parents endured (as I myself am now a mother), It’s always left a huge impact on me personally. Childhood cancer isn’t fair. It’s unbearable and it’s unimaginable. While I’ve spent a better part of my life dedicating my time to a variety of fundraisers, charities and reputable causes; childhood cancer is still the most meaningful to me. While I know that a cure isn’t quite yet in our reach, I’m happy to take part in what little I can do.

Screen Shot 2014-06-09 at 11.21.33 AMWith all that being said, it brings me to this weekend and the unbelievable experience I got to share and pass along to my daughter. We began last week by building her lemonade stand. With the help of grandma (my mom) we spent a wonderful afternoon buying supplies, constructing and painting what was soon to be her very own Lemonade Stand! (A blog post will be coming later this week with a “DIY – How To Build Your Own Lemonade Stand. – Stay tuned!) Once finished, we snapped some photos and put it aside for what was soon to be an exciting weekend of instilling in my daughter the value of giving back. *We even dedicated our donation page to Amber.

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Saturday afternoon, we busted out the supplies, baked some cookies and stirred up some lemons for what was sure to be a fun-filled weekend. We spent the better part of Saturday and Sunday afternoon taking to the streets while also sharing our event with our friends and family in the social  stratosphere. We had a goal to raise $150 in this little amount of time. . . . .Overall it was an incredibly successful endeavor!

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So all in all we learned some incredibly valuable lessons, laughed a lot, and had some overly generous customers! Paige even reached her goal of $150 and then some. . . . All together she helped to fund over 3 hours of research dedicated to finding a cure for Neuroblastoma! It was an excellent experience and I’m such a proud mommy!

Also: If you feel so inclined to make a donation, Paige’s Online Stand will be open until June 15th and you can do so HERE! Any little  amount helps, #OneCupAtATime. Oh, and we thank you in advance! We were incredibly blessed to take part in something so small, yet so worthwhile and can’t wait to participate again next year! 

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If you would like to learn more about ALSF – Alex’s Lemonade Stand Foundation or how to get involved, please visit: www.alexslemonade.org! They host hundreds of events annually and make sure that you take part in next year’s Annual Lemonade Days to #Mix.Pour.FindACure.

For other news related to ALSF check out these great stories:

  • Alex’s mom, Liz Scott and hero Bridget Smith visited “The Today Show” to kick off the weekend. Watch the video.
  • Surprise! Nobody knew that Jon Bon Jovi was going to visit hero Mario Carpino’s stand on Saturday, June 7. See the photos.
  • “NBC Nightly News” ran a story wrapping up the weekend on Sunday, June 8. Watch the video.

 

Cheers,

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Friday Favorites – Donuts *

So if you’ve not yet noticed. . . I’m obsessed with donuts. I frequently just search the word Donut on Pinterest to creep on all of the amazing pictures. It’s like when I hear the term “Food Porn” . . . My brain: Donuts – Every. Single. Time. -Don’t even care. They are just incredibly pretty. I even have a dedicated Donut Pinterest board. Don’t believe me? Just check it out for yourselves.

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I’ve even had the personal dream of owning my own Donut Shop. I’m completely incapable of not burning garlic bread, yet I feel that donuts could possibly be my calling. #Right. But seriously, I have an entire business plan worked out in my head (and half on paper). I just have to figure out how it is you make a donut. Oh, and I want the crazy wild donuts too. . . like the Donut Bar or Voodoo Donuts. I’m not kidding! Nothing like this exists in Detroit and I swear It could very well be my next dream come true. Unfortunately funding doesn’t grow on trees and like I said, I don’t even know how to make a donut, let alone like 25 different flavors. . . regardless, in honor of my obsession and Friday Favorites I’m sharing with you a few of my favorite Donut pics, along with recipes!

1. (Gluten Free) Mini Cake Donuts –86Lemons

2. Peach Donuts Glazed With White Chocolate & Pistachios – Veggie-Wedgie

3. Strawberry Frosted Donuts – Sally’s Baking Obsession

4.  Coconut Lime Donuts – On Sugar Mountain

5. Cinnabon Donuts – Something Swanky

6.Glazed Baked Red Velvet Donuts –Macaroni & Cheesecake

7. Blueberry Lemon Glazed Donuts – Country Cleaver

8. Chocolate Donuts With Blood Orange Glaze – Heather Christo

9. Cinnamon Brown Sugar Donuts – Little Miss Momma

10. Strawberry Buttermilk Mini Donuts – Hungry Girl Por Vida

I seriously need to try just ONE of these recipes. I think I’ll make it a goal for this week! #DonutDetermination. I can’t get enough. . . . YUM!

What’s your favorite donut? Have you ever tried creating your own Donut recipe? I’m curious!!

Happy Friday!!

Cheers,

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These Are My Confessions. *

I’m just going to jump right in today as I don’t have time for some class act intro. . . .so here we go:

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I confess. . . I couldn’t wait to post this week strictly because of this photo. It’s basically amazing and I used to be ALL up in this jam. Middle School days re-lived. #Winning. #TheseAreMyConfessions #Usher

I often strategically leave “my” iPad in an easily accessible location before bed for my daughter to find each morning. It equates to an additional 30 minutes + of sleep for me. As long as she has the iPad, she’s completely preoccupied AKA forgets she needs to pull my hair, steal my blankets, yell my name for no reason and shriek loudly for food. It’s pretty much the best idea I’ve ever had.

I plan to make this Lemonade stand for my daughter today . . . . It’s pretty much amazing. Since I’m currently just running my Etsy Shop from home, I figure: Why not put my almost 3-year-old to work? She needs to start pulling her weight. Did I mention my mother is coming over to help us get supplies and construct? #GodHelpUs. #GirlsDayGoneWrong. #ToolTime!

I offered to guest post for Chelsee next Thursday over at Southern Beauty Guide. I’m beyond excited!! I haven’t a clue what I’m going to publish yet but I can’t wait to be featured on such a fun blog. Great girl, great blog, great name! (I’m a little partial). Seriously though, what should I post?? GO check her out and let me know your thoughts!!

I can’t stop eating Lucky Charms. It’s not even normal. . . . went to Costco and got our 2nd family pack in less than 2 weeks. I need an intervention.

I’ve decided I’m growing out my eyebrows. It’s already been 2 months, I rarely go out in public, and nobody (cough. cough. MOM) taught me how to handle this situation in the first place so I’m pretty sure I’ve been doing it all wrong since day one. Why not start over? In the mean time, this is me. . . . .(BTW: This is an entire GIF link dedicated to eyebrows. I God damn love the internet.)

We had deer in our yard today. Now I realize to some of you that’s a totally normal occurrence, but we live off a major intersection with limited fields/wooded areas around, basically a city. . . Deer don’t just come about often/ever. I’m not really confessing anything here, but because of this I have to share this Facebook status update from my sister in-law back in 2011. I wish I still had her initial text message asking for assistance. #Hilarious. #DeerStandingByYourCarAre NOTAnEmergency.

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With that, I’m out of here!

Check out how you can confess every Wednesday with Kathy of Vodka & Soda or just Link-Up for the hell of it with Liz at Fitness Blondie for her weekly Hump Day Blog Hop! #GetIt.

 

Cheers!

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Hello June *

Hello World! Ok, so I’m back. I’ve made it official, I can no longer sit around and pout about my summer. It’s been a rough April/May but I’m ready to take on the world once again! With that being established, lets back it up a bit to what I’ve been up to as of late. . .

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So basically, it’s been a lot of “me” time. I say that in a way that isn’t always the most pleasant. . . .but I’m learning to appreciate the new freedoms I’ve been gifted. For instance, today: I rode my bike to Tim Horton’s to treat myself to their new “Frozen Hot Chocolate” – It’s basically a milkshake. #Duh. But I can’t deny it’s marketing scheme. I mean really? It’s a milkshake. Something that’s been around since the dawn of time – or maybe just the 50’s, not entirely sure. . . . (I just googled it – 1885 – BLEW my mind). . . but somehow including the term “hot chocolate” makes you imagine flavors that aren’t even there. Plus, the chocolate whipped cream is insane. I even purchased some chocolate Redi-Whip to make up for when I’m not actually drinking a frozen hot chocolate. #NotLying #BlameMyHusband.

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After I purchased my Timmy’s I strolled on over to Meijer (It’s been an eventful morning, clearly.) Now this isn’t something I should probably be discussing only one day before confessions but I figure, why not? I can’t get in too much trouble as I’ve ridden my bike, trunk space is limited, it’s in the same parking lot. #YeahRight. Anyhow, I stroll around the store with literally nothing in mind. Oh, that’s right! I did need to take a look at the Avery Labels for an Etsy order to see if they sold any 4″ diameter circle labels (I’m still not sure these even exist). . . but I knew they wouldn’t carry such an item so really, that’s just some lame excuse I come up with to enter through the gates of hell. Also known as Meijer. You see, for any of you that don’t know Meijer, (essentially anyone not living in a 5 state region of the Midwest) it’s a similar set up to Walmart with out all the added guilt of buying foreign. It’s a Michigan based retailer of groceries and other useless nonsense that I often need-not buy and in turn, typically feel good about contributing to my local economy upon departure. At least that’s what I tell myself. But seriously, it’s a money trap and I can’t stop. #Help. Anyhow, back to Meijer: I walk around for a good 30 minutes. I check out toddler shoes, the craft section, bed-in-a-bags, baby pool toys and cactuses. I went with the cactus. #Obviously.

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Isn’t it cute?! It’s was only $2.99. A complete steal if you ask me, and the least amount of money I’ve spent at Meijer ever! #NewRecord! Ok, now I’m sure I sound crazy, but seriously. It’s the little things. #Literally. While I did indeed contemplated how I could ride my Trek home with a Doc Mcstuffins comforter set attached to my back, I quickly realized I was off topic and went back to what truly mattered: the cactus, and got the hell out of there.

So that’s been my day so far. . . Oh, I almost forgot: I decided about 2 weeks ago that I was going to forego the pain of planting 12 flats of annuals AGAIN this year under my pine tree and planted some crap bag of Wild Flower Seeds. First let me start by saying that in NO way am I excited about this. I have spent every single Memorial Day weekend since I can remember at the Eastern Market in Detroit buying $300+ worth of fabulous flowers. This year, I didn’t. With everything that’s been going on, I didn’t have the time nor the energy (or funding for that matter) to be dropping money on such things that most definitely will die. While I can’t very well spend a summer flowerless, I decided for an alternative method. I had my doubts and while it took almost 2 weeks to see any signs of life, I’m happy to report that the seeds have sprouted!

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I have NO idea.

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With that being said, it’s been a royal pain in my ass to decide when and when not to weed this flower bed. At least I have my actual garden to keep me sane. . . it’s either a tomato or it’s not. #ThankGod.

In retro, this wasn’t really backing up much at all. . . I seriously just covered the past 2 hours of my life, minus dropping off Paige at Montessori. BUT, I have actually accomplished a lot in the past few weeks that I’ve been A-Wall from my blog, though I’m saving some of these updates for a later post. . . such as: The Zoo. (Twice in 2 weeks) – Did I mention we have to go back a 3rd time because we lost the sacred Barney Lunch Box? Thank goodness for Lost & Found. Cleaning the garage – that’s probably not worthy of a post, who am I kidding? But I did pat myself on the back for that. Organizing my Tupperware and crafting a few cute cubbies for my craft room!

& on that note, I’m out! But before I go, make sure to stop on over to Southern Beauty Guide and link-up with Tuesday’s Lets Be Friends Blog Hop! It’s a fun way to meet new people, see inspirational posts and the best part – they pick a few winners each week to be featured on their next hop! It’s a good time and you don’t even have to link-up with your daily post, just pick something recent that you find sharable! Oh, and they always have giveaways – added bonus!

See ya tomorrow!

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That Time I Gave Up On My Blog. *

So it’s Wednesday at 11:00 pm at night and I’m just now sitting down forcing myself to post. I guess there is no better way to kick off a weekly confession then by confessing I don’t have any idea why I’m writing today to begin with. Feel free to press the tiny X in the corner of your screen at any point. . . . I’m clearly not worthy of a decent audience these past few weeks. But seriously, it’s been one hell of a month. I can’t even begin to explain my lack of motivation.

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Between getting my life together and listening to my own thoughts, I’ve pretty much just given up completely. It’s not just blogging, it’s a mixture of everything. I’m going through a lot of personal changes at this exact moment and the time off between positions isn’t doing me any favors. The more time I have, the more I think. The more I think . . . well, I just take a nap. I’m in that state of being where you have just SO much to do, so much to figure out that “Hey lets just sleep it off” sounds so much more appealing. Between my own self-seeking and my friends and family chiming in. . . I’ve pretty much just been eating Cheetos, taking bike rides and finding things to keep my own thoughts at bay. . . so far it’s going phenomenal. (Insert Sarcasm Here).

But seriously, I have so many things to think about. I’m in a really tough spot between starting a job that could mean entirely too much responsibility to happily balance my personal life, personal business and personal serenity. . . while also making a hefty/happy contribution to our finances and utilizing my education (that I’m still paying off mind you) – OR –  diving head-first into my own personal ambitions and leaving all expectations behind in a journey of spending more time with my family and doing something that makes me incredibly happy, all while having no promised source of consistent income which could in turn cause its own collection of chaotic nightmares.

One one end; I’m a crazy, motivated, Type A personality that needs to have that pressing career which requires long hours, travel and personal sacrifice. To me, that’s a REAL career woman. I’ve obsessed over it my entire life. On the other hand, I’m creative, passionate and WAY too independent to be working in a structured corporate environment and want the ability to test my own personal possibilities. I want the best of both worlds. My husband wants the security of a traditional career. I used to feel that way too. ALL the time. Then, I became a mother. Once this happened, things changed. I wanted more than just going to work for someone else. I transitioned my thoughts to a more independent, happy and hopeful existence. BUT, I also want to be a reliable member of my family, contribute to a healthy savings, pay down debt and possibly take my child to Disney World one day . . . .if I take this leap, I’m risking all that money can bring. . . but does that really include happiness? I think not. Or maybe? I seriously just don’t even know. I do love Disney though . . .

With that being said, this is where I’m at. . . . .^^^^^^^^^^ (I Love Me Some Stitch GIFs).

In my own thoughts.

Also, while I’m thinking out loud, I’m incredibly guilt stricken with my lack in blogging these past few weeks. I have to think that this is no better place to share my struggles, yet I’m again on the couch eating Cheerios (we ran out of Cheetos – BOO!) posting just before midnight, alone. I seriously just need a little structure in my insanity and I hope to get back into a consistent pattern. I’m really not ready to give up on this self-created space. I love it and I feel like it’s just the beginning! But really, what would you ladies do? I could REALLY use some advice on the subject. . .

With that, lets sign off by sending you over to Kathy’s amazing link-up: Humpday Confessions over at Vodka & Soda for some fun and feisty posting!

Happy Hump Day (Night)!!

 

Cheers,

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My Favorite Ways In Which To Avoid Responsibility *

Wahooo! I’m back bitches!! While it’s been a hot minute since I’ve blogged (2 weeks – seriously, don’t judge me), I’m back and ready for some good ol’ Friday Favorites. You see, it’s not that I’m completely lazy, but sometimes life gets in the way. I would love to sit here and make excuses but the reality of it is, I was just NOT around. I took a hiatus and I’m not all that ashamed. Sometimes it pays to be irresponsible.#LazyAsF. In light of this, I would like to break down a few of my favorite ways in which I completely avoid responsibility:

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1. Laundry: I just don’t do it. Well that’s a lie, I wash it. . . . I just don’t believe in folding and/or putting that shit away. While it’s incredibly liberating to come home to a closet full of freshly hung clothes, I wouldn’t know the first thing about accomplishing it. Ever since moving into my husband’s home 4 years ago, the lack of closet space has led to a life of laundromatic chaos. Typically takes about 22+ loads of laundry to finally break me. I then spend 6+ hours folding on a Netflix binge. #NoShame.

2. Email:  I just don’t read them. You see, I sign up for everything under the sun and I became horrible at deleting emails (read or unread) roughly 5 years ago. To date I have like 65k + unopened emails in my inbox. In spite of this personal flaw, I managed to use my marriage last spring as an excuse to create a “new email” in which I only use for professional and personal use. In turn, leading to even LESS opened emails on the other account. It’s a vicious cycle that I don’t have a solution to. If anyone hears of an invention that just cleans house on old emails, let me know. On second though, maybe I should patent that shit. . .

Screen Shot 2014-05-08 at 1.16.58 PM3. Emptying The Dishwasher: This is somewhat of a game at our house, a standoff if you will. Both my husband and myself absolutely HATE unloading the dishwasher, but loading is something we can agree on? Regardless, I’ll let the dishes pile up to the ceiling before finally caving. I rather just slowly unload as needed much like the loading process, too bad that could take weeks. #ImSuchABum.

4. Voicemail: I can’t stand this invention. A) I don’t listen to them. Ever. Especially from my mother. (Sorry Mom I love you, but seriously. . . . you don’t have to leave me a message that goes something like: “Hey sweetie, it’s Mom. Call me back.” – Trust me, I know you called. It’s called “missed call”. It was invented in like 2001. Actually, I have no idea when it was invented, I just Googled it and I came up empty-handed. . . .but regardless it’s been around for OVER a decade. B) I never delete them (see dating back to September of last year . . . .I had to scroll down for some time) because that would involve being responsible and possibly even organized. #IShutter C). I clearly don’t ever store numbers either. . . hence blacking out all the numbers, because they are in fact, numbers, not names. I don’t even know who they are. I would have just left them for you all to call but I had my own reservations. . . .unless you of course plan on asking them if their refrigerator is running, then by all means.

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5. The Lint Trap: I realize this could be categorized with the above mentioned “Laundry” but let’s be serious, my lack of folding can’t contribute to a house fire. But for real, I could/should have burnt the basement down 10 times by now. I can’t even. . . . #SorryHusband.

6. Getting Off The Couch: When I’m down, I’m down. I don’t often sit but when I do. . . . it’s all bets off. I cannot be convinced to again rise unless chocolate covered strawberries are somehow involved. Dog needs water? #DontCare. Paige wants goldfish? #Pj!?! iPhone’s across the room? #GuessYouBetterLeaveAVoiceMail. #YeahRight.

7. Mani-Pedis: I will wait 5+ weeks before getting a fill. . .or until I break a nail and just can’t handle the incredible thought process/effort that goes into attempting to hide said nail under every varied circumstance. (Yes, I get embarrassed about that sort of petty crap). It’s not that I don’t want to take care of myself, it’s just that I don’t care. Not to mention I have way more important things to do besides sit in a chair for 2+ hours, even if that chair does have a massage feature.

8. Weeding The Garden: While it’s a little early in the season to be calling myself out on this, I thought it only right to look ahead to my seasonal irresponsibility. #CallMeAnOverachiever. Now I have yet to even plant this years flowers/veggies/herbs. . . .but don’t let that fool you: I have no intention on weeding these works of art. No joke, I will spend 3+ days perfecting each bed and pot, OCD’ing the hell out on every layout, color, spacing and more only to let them go to hell in 3 weeks. Weeding is for suckers. Not to mention I practically kill every plant I’ve ever owned. . . I just can’t deal.

Oh man, a Weeds GIF for a weeding resentment. . . .I crack myself up. #ImAmazing.

This blog you ask? Well yes, It’s been a little over 2+ weeks since I’ve tended to it, but I’m not even about to make excuses for that. I will, however, vow to never make a unestablished exit again. I missed you ladies too much. Oh and while we’re on the topic: 843 unread blogs on Bloglovin. . . It’s not that I won’t attempt to read them all, but in all honesty it’s just not gonna happen. Irresponsibility just kicked in and told me it’s “ok” to consider this a clean slate. Starting anew effective today. #DontJudgeMe.

Oh and while you’re at it, go check out the much more established, organized and clearly more responsible Amanda at Meet @ The Barre! Link up and love yourself some Friday Favorites! ❤

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Cheers!

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Everything Happens For A Reason *

As I sit here on this delicate Monday morning, I can humbly reflect on another weekend passed. While I type this half asleep, I’m comforted to know that my morning tea is only moments away. 3 sugars, light cream. Becky knows me all too well after only 3 short weeks.

The sun is glaring brightly on my face, my monitor is an impossible gloss of tiny fingerprints. I really need to consider switching booths on such bright and cheerful mornings. . . I can’t see a damn thing as I’m typing. But I love this booth, this is my booth. It’s secluded. Personal. I can see the entire city from this dumpy little coney. I wont move so I squint to see a little more.

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As of late, I’ve been lucky enough to accept each sunrise. Every single morning.While I dreaded this transition for many months, it’s in turn proven to be incredibly essential in keeping myself in tune. A forgotten piece of inspiration in my day that I’m all too thankful to have back.

The past 5 months have been exhausting. While I am in no way ready to share the experiences I’ve encountered, dealt with and still overcoming; I would like to point out that because of this self inflicted process I’ve become a better person.

“Everything Happens For A Reason.”

That’s what I’ve been told. But does it? Is there a reason for everything and everything for a reason? While I search for some personal gratification on this mild and well-mannered morning I struggle to find a solution.

But maybe that’s the problem. Maybe searching for all the answers is what brings us back to beginning. The problem. Perhaps the answer is in not knowing. In that I can find some honesty.

You see, turning your will over is no easy habit. It’s an un-perfected process that goes hand-in-hand with loss of control and lack of acceptance. Lets be serious for a second: Who in the hell wants that? Truthfully? I do. You do. We all do. The incredible humbleness that comes from letting go is something that I can’t completely describe, yet I hope to fully share. It’s a level of peace that I had never before experienced until I learned to let go absolutely.

While I’m in no way a person of extreme faith, I have always possessed the knowledge that in all my efforts I can never guarantee results. This is something that has helped me accept the life I live today. While I may not always be where I want to be, I’m where I’m supposed to be. This is happiness.

I once read that God comes along and wrecks your plans when your plans are about to wreck you. While I would have balked at such a phrase years ago, I can today appreciated the honesty and reality in these unbreakable words. Maybe things happen for a reason. Maybe you come to understand that reason, maybe you don’t. It’s faith in letting go that makes acceptance possible because sometimes, just sometimes, it’s the wrong choices that bring us to the right places.

We don’t have all the answers . . . just today. And today, I’m eating my eggs sunny side up with a side of hope. How about you?

 

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Cheers,

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